"A fine mess"

     When you think of newlyweds you typically think of the couple spending every waken hour together, the wife cooking breakfast and dinner, and even talking about a family or planning where they want to settle down.  Now, let me tell you how our marriage is completely opposite from everything previously mentioned.  Instead of spending every hour or even day together we usually spend a couple of weeks together  but only after spending months apart, there is no sharing breakfast or telling each other about our days over dinner, and as far as planning out the rest of our lives, well we just take it a day at a time. The reason behind this bizare relationship we share is called the United States Army. My husband has now been in the military for almost two years and I'll be the first to admit it's definitely been a journey. Although parts of it have been extremely difficult it has been a learning experience that has done nothing but strengthen our relationship. Over the past two years we have grown so much together. We have learned to trust, depend on, love unconditionally, and to always put the others needs before our own. Dalton and I are as different as night and day and even though sometimes he drives me insane, I couldn't possibly love him more. I'm a strong believer that no one is perfect but he has to be insanely close because he never seems to fall short of everything I need him to be. Even though we are thousands of miles apart right now he seems to always be there when I need him the most. He makes me laugh when I want nothing more than to be pissed off at the world and when I want to cry he always assures me that everything will be okay and no matter how bad the situation may be, I always believe him. I know it's probably hard for most people to understand why in the world someone would put themselves through all of this waiting and seperation when they could easily find someone close to them that they share common interest with but it's something I can't quite explain. Our relationship is a mess, I'll admit. There are no time schedules or exact dates, no guarantees, only promises and lots of wishful/hopeful thinking. But as crazy and hectic as it is I wouldn't have it any other way because it's with him and that's the only thing I need. I can't imagine ever spending my life with anyone but my husband. I would wait one hundred years for him if I had to. And yes before someone asks the inevitable question, I miss him terribly and think about him continuously. I worry about him day and night even though he tells me not to and I constantly stare at my phone hoping that he will call just so I can hear his voice if only for one second. As bad as it sucks, and trust me it does, all of the things you miss when you're apart are that much more special when he is finally in your arms again. There are so many things I wish he was here for so we could share them together but I know he wishes he were too and that's good enough for me. We'll have our time one day but right now I'm just patiently waiting.