Contentment

     My entire life I have lived based off the idea that everyone should be happy 24/7, and when your a kid that is the easiest thing in the world to do. You can get out of almost any trouble you get into, you get new toys everyday, and people give you candy just because you're cute. However, as I've gotten older it's become more apparent that being happy all of the time is simply impossible. At first I thought this was a huge crisis, anytime I got mad or upset it pissed me off even more because I let myself get mad or upset. This ended up just sending me in continuous circles of being miserable. Now after some events that have taken place within the past year or so I've realized that it's okay to be pissed. No one in their right mind expects anyone of the human race to be happy every second of everyday. So now instead of getting even more upset because I'm not happy or in a good mood I just stay pissed. I let myself be angry because then I throw my fit and I'm over it. It may sound like the childish way to deal with things but what good does it do yourself if you just hold everything in? Absolutely none. I also have a problem with trying to make everyone else happy. Don't get me wrong wanting to help others and make sure they're happy is a great thing but it's critically important that you remember to take time for youself as well, which is usually the step I tend to leave out. I have caught myself spending so much time focused on others that I actually felt like I was losing myself, which was a horrible feeling. You will never please everyone, it's impossible. And before you even attempt to you need to make sure that every single desire your heart yearns for is fulfilled. Finding yourself and being content with it is the most important lesson I've learned in life.

"Weight of the World"

     I can FINALLY relax and breathe easy. The boys all safely made it back to Germany this morning and this deployment is officially over. It's as if the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders after just one simple message this morning saying they were back and safe. No more staying up all night worrying or keeping my phone glued to my hand hoping I didn't miss his call. I can't wait for these next few weeks to fly by and for him to be home with me! I'm the happiest wife in the world right now :)

He's almost home!

"So I'm a little behind"

     I'm a little late but as of two days ago Dalton and I have happily completed our first year of marriage! Although I was positive it wouldn't this year has really flown by thankfully. It's been filled with ups and downs but against the odds we kept our heads up and made it. I'm so blessed and truly thankful to have him in my life. He is everything that is important to me. He's my strength and my weakness, my bestfriend, my lover, the person I will spend the rest of my life with, the person I'll someday have a family with, the reason for the smile stretched across my face, he's MY perfect match :)  Over the last year our relationship has been strengthened and transformed into something most people will never get to experience. So what if we don't have that mushy fairytale love...who wants that??? What we have is real! What we have will last for many years to come...

"Soul Mate"

I am convinced that the woman who wrote this(Elizabeth Gilbert) is one of the most open-minded,spiritual,brilliant people I have ever acknowleded. Her books are filled with nothing but honesty and inspiration from the first page until the very last. If you don't know her or have never read any of her work I strongly suggest that you make a trip to the bookstore soon. (Eat, Pray, Love and Committed) are two of her best works in my opinion.  

"People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master..." — Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

"MOTHER'S DAY"...May 8,2011

Sadly I was unable to spend the one day that was specifically created to celebrate the joy of mothers with my own. Instead I was stuck with no choice but giving her a single phone call to tell how much I love her and that I was sorry I couldn't help make her day special. (She also has a present on the way..which I know she will love)!!

Since I couldn't be with my own I went with a friend, her little boy, and her friends little girl to the zoo. We had alot of fun and most importantly the kids had a blast! She was able to enjoy Mother's Day with her son and I got to witness first hand some of the joys and fun that come with being a mom.

I hope everyone had a fantastic mother's day and got to share it with loved ones!

       

                                             

"Crunch Time"

    

       Well, as many of you know the big day is getting closer and closer. This also means so is the BIG move! That's right as of July, 2011 I will no longer reside in the good ole USA, however, this is good news because it means I will finally be moving with my husband!! Ahh I can't wait. Although I'm extremely excited it's starting to hit me just how close it actually is, meaning I have a lot to do in a short amount of time. Such as pack, visit family, pack, take care of last odd and ends, and pack somemore.  I never knew I had so much stuff until I slowly started putting things into boxes, boy have I made a mess. Oh well, it's time to get off here, buckle down, and get things ready to go, lord knows I am :).